我 ♥ PHOTOS.

2006-11-04T17:12:00.001-05:00

wanted to try something new with the posting, and the 2 photos looked so paired up, i couldn't resist. well, i guess i'm a bit rusty, but i'll get it back. there's something about the images that remind me of a mirror, has that certain sense of duality to it. i can't explain why this appeals to me so much.

2006-10-24T18:21:00.000-04:00

while it's not anything special, i do realize i haven't been doing anything for the past couple months or so. this is the best i can do, for some sort of need to do a tribute to autumn while the leaves are still there. the thought of being able to start taking courses after the ged excites me, but at the same time i'm just scared shitless. oh, and if you still check back, thanks to e. r. dunhill for the encouragement. it means a lot =) at least instead of sulking over whether i could do something and just sitting on my ass, i've realized i need to take action and stop complaining. too many things can happen while i stay idle. wow, do i sound like i'm afraid to grow old? ok this is weird.

well then, on another note, i'm afraid the shots i've been taking lately look horrible. any one of them. i think the gloomy sky might have something to contribute to that, but i'm just not good enough to be able to take a good pic even under bad lighting, and with my crappy point & shoot, it's not even worth a try, really. the scene in the pic above was breathtaking, because it had just rained (i love how the sidewalks are always scattered in yellow after rain) and the red of the bricks and the red car in contrast to the yellow... it was like a painting. too bad i screwed it up -__-;; i need to start learning how to use a dslr. maybe i'll be better at this photography gig.

i pray that classes will do me some good. maybe that could be my goal.

2006-09-29T19:43:00.000-04:00

learned to airbrush properly; now everyone can enjoy the kind of digital flawless skin that doesn't really exist =) finally decided to post again, due to having nothing to post for the past month or so, plus the fact that no matter how many times we decide to replace the router, it still doesn't work. went to jess's new apartment yesterday and gave everyone makeovers, then had some photo fun. photos are fun. editing photos can be a bitch =T but the result is interesting. skin tones are fun to tamper with too. note: why do i have a tendency to not look at the camera when taking pics? it's like i subconsciously expect a flash and avert my eyes ahead of time.

2006-09-01T10:33:00.000-04:00

blah, rage is an unpleasant feeling.

2006-08-27T08:32:00.000-04:00

wow the gloomy tree one barely came out on my other computer. must have something to do with something to do with monitor brightness or something.

a grey world.

2006-08-26T20:07:00.000-04:00

here's the edited colorless trees shot. huge difference in mood.

the duck one in black and white. i'm not sure if i like it better. i dislike both, but i guess this suits my current mood a little better.

some more B&W of the trees overlooking the river...

the pollution pic looking a lot different. how's that for happy?

this pic sort of conveys my mood right now. i didn't post this one before, since the sunset behind it didn't come out at all. but when something's black and white, whether or not those come out doesn't really matter...

the gloomy pic in B&W. i'm not sure whether or not this is gloomier, without color. it's funny that things seem so much more depressing without color.

this doesn't seem so bad. in fact it sort of looks more like hope than despair. maybe like... the end of a bad journey, and coming to a clearing, and seeing something refreshing. i'm listening to pink's "who knew", it could be adding to the sort of gloomy mood. but after posting all those pics and looking back on them, i realized how unstable i was. i thought photography could be something i could go into, but now i feel so... talentless. too many what-ifs. what if the only good shots i took were all luck shots? anyone can take pictures. anyone can take a good picture given good lighting and a good subject. flipping through a photography textbook makes me feel like a fool. i can compare this feeling to that of investing in something unworthwhile. something similar to bankruptcy maybe? i wouldn't know, i haven't had the chance to be bankrupt yet. i just think it would be somewhat similar, the feeling of having nothing or being nothing.

anyway, i've been meaning to get my GED this summer. i guess that's reason enough for me to doubt myself. i barely remember basic algebra. shoot, if i didn't speak every day i might be unable to right now. i know i'm fairly smart, i'm just not a genius. and things pass by so quickly, i've barely had a chance to see them before they're just.. gone. i used to have a way with words too... and now i can barely form decent sentences. reading my old essays makes me think, who the heck wrote this? i used to be able to write like this? looking at my old sketchbook just makes me wonder where all that talent went. it's like childhood was the ripe season of my life. if i think about it from that point of view, it almost feels like photography is the cheap way out, since i can't sketch anymore. all i need instead is a mechanism that creates the images for me. and when i see some of these shots, it feels like i can't even do that right.

isn't it funny? i ended this post with the image that i started the last one with. maybe life is like that too. everything's ironic when you're down, i guess. i'll end this post now before i sound like the drama queen that i am. and i'm changing the profile pic temporarily to suit my mood. that one pisses me off.

2nd charles viewing.

2006-08-26T19:04:00.000-04:00

this reminds me of one of those things that you catch out of the corner of your eye. in any case, the foliage nearby frames it nicely.

the sunset from a child's view? i can't make anything else of it. the fence made a nice foreground =)

the colors here look so soft this looks like it popped out of a dream. the buildings for some reason make it look somewhat exotic.

someone sailing at sunset. i think these people actually noticed me taking a picture of them too, and kept staring at me while they passed by. but this took place before they did that, which makes for a pretty nice shot.

hmm.. the horizon. nice buildings.

more dusky colors. cute little boat in there.

this is the john hancock building with a naked maple for foreground. it really reminded me of a flower show i saw at the expo when i was... iono... 8? 9? anyway i thought it looked cool the way the color of the sky sort of descends down on it.

this looked surprisingly gloomy. the setting was actually nice and breezy, yes it was somewhat cloudy, but it was a nice spot to sit for a read. having it come out this dark was a bit of an extra bonus, i think it sort of adds mood to it.

don't know if this is even worth posting, but i have it anyway and i'm BORED T__T the colors in this look so dead. it just looks... so dead. gah i hate this pic. maybe i'll post a B&W one later.

a glimpse through the leaves =)

i love this one, just for the sole fact that you can see a couple standing there at the dock admiring the sunset, and then a pair of ducks swimming toward them. it's so cute.

okay, the couple's still there, the mood isn't as perfect though. but the leaves do shadow nicely, it makes for a somewhat even balance.

ummm.. a huge cigarette?

a squirrel =) this was the following day outside my house btw, not at the charles.

overall, that was my 2nd visit to the charles with jenny, and boy was i beat. we biked to the end of cambridge and the freakin bike seat was too high for me, i had to bend over irregularly to reach the handles. what's worse is that the brakes don't work that well, so around pedestrians i'd have to take extra care to go at a decent speed so i can stop in time, just in case. and then you have those assholes who see you coming on a narrow sidewalk and they just don't give a damn and would rather get hit than move. plus i did end up falling and scraping myself a little. i happened to almost fall on a little girl in a carriage, but the little girl is safe. that would have been traumatic. i have two bruises the size of fists though. and i had to guard my bike most of the time so taking pics was pretty limited, or i can only take pics of certain surroundings close to the bike. luckily, i got about 10 min of my own exploring time when i asked jen to watch the bike for a bit, but... that's about it. everything came out with the same set of colors since i took them all at the same time, but mostly, that bike pisses me off. well hey, at least i have some mediocre pics?

personal record!

2006-08-19T13:50:00.000-04:00

record of the day! i've been obsessively hooked on minesweeper for the past couple of hours, with nothing else better to do, since the comp is now reformatted and hopefully working again. maybe it's just me, but minesweeper seems oddly similar to sudoku, except that it relies more on luck... i guess i just have nothing else better to do and thought that i should shove that post of the onigiri out of the way. but come to think of it posting a screencap of a game of minesweeper is even weirder. but while on the subject, i found it pretty weird that in the 3 games that i've beat so far, 2 out of 3 has a score of 164. the remaining one was in the 160s too, but it seems there's no way i can physically click any faster than that.

i'm dead

2006-08-13T08:20:00.000-04:00

the beginning of a tiresome journey...

crosswalk, red lights and a four way street.

shadows at around noon =)

all the boats docked nearby, without sails...

a duck!

sailboats under a willow tree =)

setting sail!

cute little bridge with lego-like buildings in the distance.

someone's ivy hanging from a tray in the north end. my legs were getting numb by then.

getting back near the city with the tall buildings! there's the extremely reflective glass building in the back that's shaped sort of like a ps2... and the subtle reflection of the clouds in the windows at the left =)

here i am taking a pic of this necklace i liked through the window of a jewelry store. the clerk is busy helping a customer so i don't look too suspicious....

the beautiful statues outside of the borders store...

so that concludes my insane walking day with jenny. i'm sure we probably covered 5 miles at least, to and from for me. walked from my house to arlington to the charles, then crossing the bridge at the very end of the right side, then heading to where beacon hill was where all the rich people lived... i believe it's somewhere near north end, because they had italian flags hanging around shops. it felt almost like harry-potterville how everything was made of brick and it was so lively. all the shops had its own mom&pop shop feel to it. everything feels a hundred years old. so anyway, from there we went to the state house, sat for a while because my stomach was upset. then we set out again, but back into downtown when jenny wanted to go back and go to faneuil hall T__T... we went to borders after sitting down to a street performance. she eventually called and met up with kerby, and they went on to faneuil hall while i half-limped my way home. it is now 2 days after, and i am still sore. i spent all of yesterday sleeping... precisely 22 hours, with about an hour of break in between... i think by now i've figured out that i'm extremely horrible with any type of workout, and will never attempt that kind of distance again. that should about conclude my nice stroll around boston.

a goofier post...

2006-08-13T08:07:00.000-04:00

jenny's back walking. the tree branch hanging down towards the fence reminded me of the story of narcissus...

a cool mysterious guy standing somewhere in the north end. you can tell he's a good guy just by the way he's posing.

creepy entrance. it looked darker than this in real life. you can walk down there into a donut shop.

a statue outside of the state house, i think? i felt no need to emphasize it, but if you look closer the name inscribed under the statue says "HOOKER". i attracted the attention of everyone sitting there when i screamed "hey that says hooker!", along with a couple of dirty looks.

my new phone strap that i bought for my ipod! it's supposed to symbolize mike, like when his eyes are glued to the tv when the game is on and i become invisible altogether. i find it amusing that it has a baseball for a head and no face xD

and this is just this morning when i was being taken home (to a place with internet) and dawn was being reflected off the police headquarters building. i'll bet i looked pretty suspicious whipping out a camera and everything. but it's pretty.

BOREDOMMMM...

2006-08-09T06:54:00.000-04:00

first of all is this adorable decoration (what do you call it?) that me and mike bought at star music in chinatown (bleh $8 what a ripoff) but i get all fuzzy and warm inside when i look at it =) it is currently hanging on his rearview mirror, which is surprising. i thought this type of thing would be too "feminine" for him to agree to put it on his car, but he says it reminds him of us =^o^=

mike's nice little surprise dinner for me =) some of them tasted a little funny but i think that's the salmon's fault. complete with nigiri and an onigiri ^^;;

random pic i forgot i'd taken, but it looks sorta pretty. reminds me of those fruit that look like stars when you cut em up?

and my new onigiri/sushi guy strap! soo adorable x] the little strip of seaweed is his sushi chef hat! i am pretty bored, so that's all i have to post, while i have an internet connection. i'm also resisting the urge to sleep...

An Overdue Post on the BEACH.

2006-08-04T21:52:00.000-04:00

wahh, long time to post, but the only thing post-worthy seems to be the pic of the fire truck on our way to the beach on 7/26.. my internet connection died, then computer died from the heat. nice one, dell. anyway, this was an accident that happened while we were on our way to the beach, and it was really fucked up that i took a pic anyway, but i was in my "oh my gosh the cop isn't looking!" and take-a-pic-of-everything mood. that's right, i'm bad! >=O but iono, after really looking at it it looks sorta cool, with the big bridge behind and everything. ~__~ a pic is a pic, i cannot resist the pretty.

i cannot seem to find any pics of people in here, and if there are someone's always cut out, so i'll just post this nice angle shot of jess. i believe a wave should be on its way to hitting her, and i love how the horizon is all slanted behind her, and how the waves extending all the way down gives this nice perspective.

and here's little christian, taken by jess. whose idea was the umbrella again? it makes for a nice light filter, makes the lighting in this pic seem so much warmer. he looks adorable with those little mittens, haha. oh the beauty of children =)

a picture of the sun at high noon, with nice holy clouds surrounding. jess noticed it, pointed it out, and everyone (well, me and melissa) whipped out our cameras! although there's no background or foreground, the clouds make it look pretty dramatic as is, huh?

2006-07-25T19:53:00.000-04:00

wow i posted 4 pics of some clouds and a tree. i'm really beginning to see what they mean when they tell me i have serious issues, lol. the whole time i was there i took pics mostly, of those clouds and that one tree. i'm so retarded... xD

2006-07-25T14:20:00.000-04:00

and finally, onto the objective of my posting today. sunday was jess's long awaited bbq, and this is the group shot of everyone who attended. i don't really remember half the names of the people in this, but by the time we took this pic A LOT of people had left already, which was sort of weird. why save the group pic until AFTER people leave? but then if you think about it, we had barely enough room to fit these people on her back porch and in the pic, let alone all those other people too. i had to do this with flash on, since without flash it looked like god was dropping the sun on us. i also ended up taking bunches of pics of the giant pine in the back, as well as the sky in several different shades as it started to set. i'm the one with the outrageously colorful shirt. mike right behind me, and jess right behind him. the rest i either don't remember or don't know well enough to mention, so there it is.

that's theresa with (kim's) baby, she really wanted me to get a pic of her with it ^^;; i love the warm lighting in this. so did she, haha.

this is an interesting tree stump in jess's backyard. looks like it got struck by lightning or something. if i were a kid i would love to burrow in that hole and make a little fortress, given that i don't know how dirty it is in there. looking at it now, it actually reminds me of a bird's nest the way the twigs are sticking out everywhere.

and this is said pine tree with rain clouds coming up. i believe this was sometime in the afternoon when everyone was still out playing sports and such.

and then this is the same pine tree with the sun setting and clouds that look like tire tread marks. the dark clouds above the tree were left out of this pic, but were actually swirling sort of in a circle, so it felt like the storm was going to be directly above us. with that said it was actually pretty surprising that it didn't rain at all while we were there. it had rained beforehand though, which left the grass wet and slippery. my ankle still hurts from slipping while trying to dive for the birdie (badminton).

anyway this is a zoomed out pic of all the swirling clouds, or part of them anyway.

and these are the tire marks with a trail of clouds that makes it look like a plane just crash landed.

...and the trip home!

2006-07-25T14:10:00.000-04:00

wow, not posting in forever. this is new. this is a shot from yesterday, purely by chance that there were no cars on the road, especially lucky for a road as busy as that one. i thought it looked cool how the road is sort of put on focus and the rest is out black from the sun. it made me think of one of those roads out at night with nothing illuminating them but the street lamps, and the clouds cluttered around the sun there looked like a jellyfish floating by, with the clouds as the tentacles. talking about it like this reminds me of the notion of lying on a blanket on a summer day and pointing out what you see in clouds, but then again, if i'd been looking at this in real life for this long i'd prolly be blind by now.

from yesterday also. umm, i don't know why i like this. the way the straps were laid out just looked sort of cool, and i was particularly fascinated by the camera in my hand at the moment, so here it is. i still don't know why i'm posting this.

last one from yesterday. i took a whole series of these, and ended up picking this out since they all looked pretty much the same. i guess i just sort of liked how the wires looked like they were connected to the sun. no other reason really, besides that. this is one of those things where i'm posting just to post.

Another wish list of things I cannot afford.

2006-07-10T22:03:00.000-04:00

why must i always do this? WHYYY?? this is... the upcoming release of the k800, the next model after my previous dream phone (k750, it's the k800 now). it has 3.2 mp and has a sort of imitation burst mode, called bestpic technology or something. HOT. link to technical stuff here.

the canon s3is is the not-so-popular upgrade to the s2is, which is apparently deemed the best on cnet. the s3is wasn't so popular though, so i really wonder if i should get this. the only reason why i'm looking to begin with is just to compensate for my current camera's horrible zoom. well what do you expect, with a point&shoot. technical details: here.

canon eos 30d, a camera that would cost me my soul. prices start more than a grand, and i know this is definitely not what i'm getting, but just a little drooling can't hurt. this is one sexy piece of equipment i would love to learn how to use. even just looking at the picture makes me wanna stroke my monitor. technical details.

canon rebel xt. i want. BAD. its price is low for a dslr and when it comes down to it the ones i really want are the megazoom canon s3is and this. but the way the equation works in my head is that with the s3is it'll be like owning a more expensive version of a point&shoot that zooms well, and with this it's owning my first step of actual photography, not to mention i'll have to pay extra for decent lenses, i'm sure. and it's about maybe $400 extra for decent lenses. so i guess it will be about another grand, but which to go with? the pricy point&shoot or the cheap dslr? i have no idea. how do you even compare? this is also the most popular camera on cnet, forgot to add that. technical details here.

2006-07-10T05:05:00.000-04:00

jenny didn't come out at all in the picture. she was pretty much this black splotch (so was the tree) cuz of the sun. the sky looked neater than this before =( but i had no choice, in order to bring jenny out the most i could keep of the sky is this.

2006-07-10T05:00:00.000-04:00

this one didn't even come out before, but i used photoshop to equalize coloration and it looks pretty neat now, i think. especially with all the other flowers in the back all out of focus.

2006-07-10T04:58:00.000-04:00

a photoshopped slightly vers. of the one posted before. i got bored. made the greens look a little livelier and so in turn the sun looks more vibrant.

2006-07-10T02:58:00.000-04:00

the view in the rearview mirror near mike's house that looked sorta cool to me. it's kinda hard to try not to get myself in the pic -__-;; cuz it's a MIRROR. i liked how the 'T' sign reflected off the glass and the body of the car, and THEN shows up in the mirror to be taken a pic of. a nice treat for the end of the day.

2006-07-10T02:55:00.001-04:00

a lone yellow leaf that never made it to the ground, just lying on a blanket of the green ones. it looked sort of sad to me.

2006-07-10T02:55:00.000-04:00

a yellow leaf wedged inside a cage of the green ones. couldn't get a clear shot, otherwise this would've looked cooler.

2006-07-10T02:54:00.000-04:00

no, this was not just the lighting. these leaves were sort of a silver-blue-ish lying against the rest of the regular green ones. it looked like special winter herbs or something, so i couldn't pass up. nearly fell down the hill getting this, cuz it was on a steeper part of the hill.

2006-07-10T02:53:00.000-04:00

i thought this looked kind of cute, just some lone leaves of this barren branch. and the colors looked interesting too, with the vivid green against the ground all out of focus.

2006-07-10T02:52:00.000-04:00

me and mike at the arboretum, although we both look a little creepy. this was after the cottontail chase (we saw a bunny and chased it through some trees. the thing must've been horrified.)

2006-07-10T02:51:00.000-04:00

a closeup of one of the flowers fallen from the tree.

2006-07-10T02:50:00.000-04:00

flowers that fell from a tree, it was blanketing the floor. i kept trying not to step on any cuz i felt bad. it actually looked pretty cool, like a scene right out of a movie or something.

2006-07-10T02:49:00.001-04:00

we made a full round back to the cotton tree, and i just couldn't pass up.

2006-07-10T02:49:00.000-04:00

the trees in zoom far off in the distance. i took it slightly tilted though, but i still think it looks sorta cool.

2006-07-10T02:48:00.001-04:00

these ivy leaves look cute =)

2006-07-10T02:48:00.000-04:00

these stems are actually green in color, but the setting sun was casting a kind of red hue on them. it looked pretty cool so i took a pic of them, although now looking at them just makes me think of discoloration in the leaves.

2006-07-10T02:47:00.000-04:00

doesn't it look like mushrooms are growing from the tree branch? haha. i thought it looked cute so i wanted to take a pic of it.

2006-07-10T02:46:00.000-04:00

i FINALLY get a pic of a seeding dandelion. sort of out of focus though.

2006-07-10T02:45:00.001-04:00

the sun setting while we were on top of the hill. i thought the sky looked beautiful.

2006-07-10T02:45:00.000-04:00

the whole bunch of the white flowers.

2006-07-10T02:44:00.002-04:00

closeup of the same kind of flower, but white instead of magenta and slightly bigger.

2006-07-10T02:44:00.001-04:00

a weird kind of flower.

2006-07-10T02:44:00.000-04:00

the sun setting along a road, with a pine branch hanging down with a bunch of pines in it. the sun was a brighter orange and was filtering through the trees.

2006-07-10T02:43:00.000-04:00

cotton blossums up close, but out of focus. the berries (are they berries?) are apparently in focus, and i just liked the pink... why not.

2006-07-10T02:41:00.000-04:00

the actual cotton tree, with the pink blossoms. looks sort of like the little cotton swabs that japanese people use to pick their ears, haha.

2006-07-10T02:40:00.001-04:00

wilted cotton flower on the pavement at the arnold arboretum. looked kinda pretty in color.

2006-07-10T02:40:00.000-04:00

this is the sky from the pool's view at his house. i thought the clouds looked like a blanket, too bad any lower and i would've gotten the neighbors' houses in there too.

2006-07-10T02:38:00.000-04:00

this is the same fern but closer up, and i just wanted to get the pattern of the leaves in.

2006-07-10T02:37:00.000-04:00

there's a small tree (or is it a giant fern?) growing on the right side of the porch, and it looked really pretty. doesn't quite look as good on picture, but the green comes out so vibrant.

2006-07-10T02:36:00.000-04:00

the hanging vines, again at peter's place. it's sooo beautiful, it feels really like a tropical getaway.

2006-07-10T02:35:00.000-04:00

this is peter's back porch, where he has this nice vine hanging down from the roof setup. it's really pretty, and the sun filtering through made it look cool, so i decided to take a pic of it while everyone was just talking about school and such. the rays of the sun doesn't come out in the picture though, so oh well. but it still looks pretty.

to peter.

2006-07-10T02:09:00.000-04:00

i'm sorry about yesterday, and i'm sorry if i ruined your mood too because of me. i just hadn't realized that that was really your one big event before going back to cali, and i was just being selfish. i wouldn't have realized if jenny hadn't called me and told me that what i said was mean, and i guess i just took it for granted that you'll be in ma. i guess that's what happens. when i see you again it's like oh yay he's back for good, and then that thought just sticks in my head even when you tell me otherwise. and i feel that it wasn't so much as my overthinking it as that there are certain nerves that still hurt when they're hit, no matter how many times i get put through it already. the past couple of weeks i've been repeating to myself in my head, i don't know what the fuck i'll do, or i don't know how to do this. i guess i really expected to just throw that off and relax, but being around so many people who are already on their way to success, i guess, in my mind was just like an ultimate putdown. i know i'm sensitive, and i know it shouldn't bother me, but it's just sort of this constant stabbing pain type thing in the back of my head.

i know you didn't need to hear all those things. i just... really want you to understand how i felt. at no point in time did i feel that it was anyone's fault, but i did attempt to lash out i guess. i'm sorry for that. and i'm sorry that i made such a poor performance of myself and just slumped over. oh, but all the girls squealing did get to me though. it's like deja vu of 9th grade, when all the boys used to chase the girls around and the girls would be like "no!" in this stupid high-pitched voice. or that's just me, cuz i'm such a party pooper. again, i'm sorry that i left on such a bad note. if i'd only remembered that the date of departure was THIS FRIDAY. i would've stayed, and even in a bad mood i would've tried to control myself. i really even wanted to stay a little later just to be able to talk to you a little more personally like we used to, but i guess it didn't work out that way. again, my fault entirely. i'm really really sorry.

p.s. - i didn't call you back because i ended up falling asleep with the phone in my hand =) mike claims it rang but i never heard it. i claim poor service. either way i hope you're not mad at me =(

2006-07-08T01:31:00.000-04:00

this is our date, 6/25, for pho since we missed our initial anniversary cuz he had work and we were just lazy. i don't so much as like this as that it makes me hungry. actually, it doesn't so much as make me hungry as it makes me crave pho ~__~ and some of those crunchy spring rolls. with the sauce that mike loves to pour in his pho soup *drools* i can imagine myself as a pregnant woman right now already. i'll be a britney spears after giving birth, guaranteed.

2006-07-08T01:28:00.000-04:00

this was taken sometime in sep. 05 on our trip back from quincy, and there were some boats docked and i didn't quite have enough time to shoot them. mike was driving his usual speed. so, now i don't even know what those black splotches are, but the main word that comes to mind is "memory" and "time". i don't know why i'm fond of it. aww man, i should scan in the pic of that boat the old lady drew and signed for me while i worked at staples. and post that. i wonder how she's doing now. that always cheered me up whenever i looked at it, even with the worst of customers.

2006-07-08T01:14:00.000-04:00

these are pics of me slutty self while mike was at work, circa 6/18. i was bored and just got nice shorts from tello's and a whole package of shoes shipped in. those shoes were the ones i particularly liked, and the shorts i bought with jess at tello's, the same day i went to staples court st. and told them i'd work for chris shortly after i told jess right outside the door that i'll say no at all costs. yes, i'm a camera whore ~__~ but i like the pictures :D the window behind me and the sun filtering in gives it a nice glow. these were all set on timer before i RUSHED to sit so a lot of them turned out with me off center or something. i ended up photoshopping one of these for mike with a heart in a thought bubble and an animated cat + dog, over here. when you don't have a job and is stuck at someone's house (well, technically mine too now that i've lived here for a year) for HOURS on end this is what you tend to do. that is, after you run out of things to take pictures of. after taking pics of oily dishes that need to be washed this was the best thing i could come up with as an alternate solution.

iono, it's like ever since i took such gorgeous pics of mike's sister i'm obsessed with being able to take a perfect pic of myself, without having to use photoshop to airbrush or anything. or just, people. it's the overly shallow side of myself revealing itself. hmm, maybe i should post a second entry to this with the full quality vers. of jenny's pics, in the same format. her pics are so freakin gorgeous, i can't help being jealous. one more thing: isn't it funny how the objects on the floor keep shifting? it's cuz i kept tripping over them on my way to sit down xD i can't help laughing at that, it's like a slideshow and the objects on the floor have minds of their own.

2006-07-08T01:01:00.000-04:00

this is a pic mike took of me all the way back in oct. of '05 that i really liked. too bad i decided to be a smartass and photoshop it, then saved it right over the original. so now, all i have is this, which i don't even like ~__~ that oughta teach me a lesson. my HAIR is friggin PURPLE. nice eh? just thought i'd post that for times sake.

an entire post on FLOWERS.

2006-07-08T00:17:00.000-04:00

i don't have anything new to post, but i'm itching to post. i'm just browsing through old pics and seeing which ones might be post-worthy that i've skipped. i thought this looked interesting the way the flower on main focus is sort of tilting toward the other ones in the back. i've sort of been forgetting my camera lately so with nice potential shots, nothing. got to make a habit of keeping it on me somewhere. maybe even double-knotting it to my bag. need to bring my ipod along more too. it's just been serving as my #1 attachable hard drive for music. and even still i only have 10gb free on it ~__~

this would be pretty if the one in front wasn't all dried and half wilted. this was all at home depot btw, which was the day mike got mad at me for snapping at everything. oh, and today was supposed to be when we went on our date to see pirates of the caribbean but i can't stand the idea of paying $10 each for admission -__-;; just realized this looks like lotuses and lily pads, sort of. also, i just realized this would look so much better if the sides were cropped to the edge of the 2 flowers, but i'm feeling lazy and moving on.

i thought the few damaged petals reminded me of that poem i did for declamation in my 2nd year of 9th grade, and one of those atypical "he loves me, he loves me not" flowers. i can really see the petals drifting in the water around it or something. makes me wish i could go back, rip the flower off its stem and drop it in some water with some scattered petals of the same type of flower and snap a shot before the ripples disperse. but no, i'm really against picking flowers.

mm, gook fa cha. makes me wanna drink some good ol chinese tea. should this be flipped to be a vertical pic instead? not that i really care, i just think that the difference in the flower colors due to the weird angle of lighting makes it look sorta cool. and the directions the flowers are facing describes perspective in an odd way.

just felt like posting the whole series of the pics i took of these. nothing much to say about this one except that i wish there was a bee smack dab in the middle of the picture, to the right of the stimuli a little bit.

and the last one of these. i liked how the focus was on the center of the flower and the petals are out of focus closest to the camera. i don't know, it builds for a nice effect. i should probably photoshop some of these pics a little bit and repost the photoshopped ones later, but it'll depend how lazy i am.

umm... this is the wrinkled thing in mike's backyard. i didn't take this one, he did. i was too cranky to take a pic of a flower that day so he did it for me. i love lilies =) but otherwise i guess the shriveling up makes me feel bad cuz the flower looks kinda diseased. this is just one of those posting just cuz i feel like posting ones.

2006-07-08T00:01:00.000-04:00

this was a pic of me and ashley after the clubbing experience. i look chipper as always =) and i remember it was windy, giving us elvis presleys in all the pics. this one was the only one that came through, but this is one of those pics where one of us holds the camera and tries to take a straight shot xD doesn't quite work out but most of the pics tend to turn out funny. i wasn't even wearing anything all that revealing. it looked like casual beachwear to me, but i guess since i was the only asian there i was just exotic delicacy for the however many black guys that were there. i looked pretty scrubby overall too. my hair needed washing and i just decided to tie it in a scrubby ponytail, i didn't even care to do anything with it. whatever. bad experiences have got to teach you something.

2006-07-07T01:39:00.000-04:00

yaaaaaay~ final draft of the resume! or i hope so anyway. i'm hoping to submit this to a couple of places, and seeing what feedback i get. so many great opportunities for shots today but i left my camera at home, so a big disappointment there. the moon looked nice tonight too but a moon isn't something you can creep quietly up to and snap a pic of. in other words, my zoom SUCKS. besides that, it was a fun day considering the long walk, which i would normally not enjoy -__-;; and it's always great to have good company. peter's holding a barbecue this sunday. wonder how many people are coming. tired. updating ipod and then hopefully some wink.

resume writing.

2006-07-05T00:00:00.000-04:00

today, jess taught me the first thing to writing a lesson: having a template. must admit that after getting that template it wasn't as hard as i thought it was. but god damn, so many lines to fill out. and flat out exaggerating everything i've ever done to sound so great. i spent a whole half a day on this crap. and at the end of the day this is all i've got:

i give up. signing up for gmail now is ridiculous. nothing looks quite impressive enough to do anything with. at least staples sounds decent, for a retail job. the one that sounds most interesting is web design for sliceofrice, i guess. but even with that, i didn't even get paid.

2006-07-02T17:48:00.000-04:00

whew. finally, i'm down to yesterday's pics. i guess i should really get into the habit of emptying my camera contents more often. but i get lazy and now that i have my 1gb card (yay!) it doesn't strike me as necessary, compared to before when i had to empty it every 16 pics or so, which is about every half an hour at the rate i take em, heh. this isn't such a nice pic, but the dragonfly was beautiful. the pic doesn't do it justice. i decided to post it anyway since this is my ONE accomplishment of being able to take a pic of something before it runs away, with this crappy zoom. i just zoomed it like crazy, set the focus on and came up as close as i could without threatening it. and slowly. man that took like a whole 5 minutes of my life but i did it! ok, moving on now.

this was just something i saw through one of the shop windows near downtown, right before macy's. i think it must've been an art store of some sort, cuz they had household furnishings selling inside. looked too expensive for me to go in and look like a loser so the only pic i took was this. i love it. i feel like i just took a pic of some ancient artifact. i wonder who the artist of this was.

this was across the street from the ne medical center. i thought the green, blue, and red clash nicely, so i wanted to take a pic of it with the perspective and everything. funny how all the people on the left seem to be lined up. that girl on the front looks pretty pissed for some reason. OOH! i also witnessed an arrest in mcdonalds yesterday. thought i should mention that, it was my first. the guy was just sitting there and the cop was all like "NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME??" and had 2 guys hold his head down on the table with his arms behind him. ashley thought it was fun but i was kind of horrified.

and finally, this was just at my house, and i saw the light shine on the stairs interestingly. just thought i'd capture the moment before i lost it. aaaaand i'm done.

2006-07-02T17:37:00.000-04:00

this was mike's drawing of the statue of liberty in the game brain age on the nintendo ds xD it made me laugh so i took a pic of it just for keepsakes, cuz the game doesn't save the pics after comparing them with other players. too bad all those lines come up when i try to take a pic of lcds.

and this is just a random shot of the sky over the charles river while we were turning onto storrow drive. i had my head out the window like a dog the whole time, and i guess this was a bit of a lucky/timely shot. the sky looks so beautiful.

this is on the same day (6/26) and this was when we were stuck in fenway after the game ended. we were just going to the gas station outside the stadium and we got stuck, cuz none of those asses in the cars in the pic here would let us go. so while stuck waiting for a turn, i stuck my head out the window, set it on black and white and took a pic of the stadium. i love that budweiser sign =)

2006-07-02T17:21:00.000-04:00

this was taken 6/27/06. i'm just browsing through my xd card now so i'm sorting through which i like and which i don't, and cataloguing them into their specific folders. i just really like the sky in this for some reason. this was at south bay center, and it was an awfully nice day. i think that was the day mike got mad at me cuz i took a pic of everything i saw, lol. but anyway, i was surprised i got a seagull in there cuz it was so frustrating when i kept trying to take pics of the seagulls but have them fly away if i come too close. i love my friggin camera but god damn it the zoom sucks! i have to walk up and do it myself. i swear that's gonna make me cause a traffic accident someday. and then i'll sue fuji, ha ha ha. -__-;;

this was on the same day. i was surprised that the fence actually came out since i was in mike's car and he was going 40+, as usual. AND the fast shutter speed option isn't even on. sometimes my camera surprises me. too lazy to edit that pole out. i think it looks fine as is. i'm no perfectionist so whatever.

2006-07-02T17:05:00.000-04:00

this was probably in waltham somewhere. i got mad at mike the other day, though i was probably just pmsing--that he was lazy and didn't go out with me when i asked, and that the sun was going down already. i made a big deal out of it and cried and everything (oh yeah i was pmsing) and he just stuck me in his car and babied me and we drove in a straight direction west, to "chase the sun" he said. i thought it was the sweetest thing ever. we drove until we got to lincoln (where the hell?). we saw the "welcome to LINCOLN" sign and we both just freaked out, and it was getting dark (haha how could a car possibly be faster than the sun?) so we just both decided to turn back before we got stuck in this remote location for the night, in the dark, with nothing but headlights.

this was also in waltham, though probably nearing lincoln. we drove in a straight line west, starting boston/roxbury, then into brookline, brighton, watertown, waltham, then, i guess finally, lincoln. this was all within 1 hour and this was on 6/30... i think this shot would've probably looked better if i took it outside the car but hey, what can you do. plus that light on the left is so distracting. i swear i'm about to photoshop that out. why do suburbs have so many telephone poles? and those whatchamacallits sticking up were on a big hill with a huge forest on it. it was so pretty. made me wanna go hike up the damn thing. i wish i remembered what the hill was called. hell, i should've taken a picture, but what can you do.

EDIT: "Bear Hill, west of I95, is home to a number of antennas, and is now being developed for housing." how sad. the hill's name is called archstone bear hill. developed for housing means that beautiful forest i saw there won't be there much longer. that really makes me sad.

2006-06-30T14:04:00.000-04:00

this is the other cow i had taken a pic of. this is right outside the boston public library in copley, and also placed where the marathon finishing line is, so i thought that was pretty cute and got a picture of it. sometimes i really hate looking like a tourist, stopping and snapping at locations and such. it just makes me feel kind of like an idiot. EDIT: what was that saying i used to have in my aim profile? something about meeting at the revolving foot of copley? this kind of fits it perfectly xD

2006-06-30T13:58:00.000-04:00

this is one of the many cows posted in boston right now, and this was actually taken during my walk to prudential with perverted john from staples. so, in short, i guess this was my one fruitful memory of that day, and i distinctly remember thinking that the swan painted on the cow's stomach looked like the cow was pregnant with a swan. that, or that the cow became carnivore, but i thought the other one was cuter (in a weird way). this is beside the public garden, which is why the swan boat and the bridge is painted on the cow. i still have no idea why these cows are lying all around boston.

FOR JESS!

2006-06-29T19:25:00.000-04:00

and this one's for you jess, for cheering me up so much. your comment made me feel so much better. at first i'd thought i'd overreacted to what they said cuz davy said it wasn't a big deal and i just somehow kept feeling strongly that it was. thanks so much jess, even though you're on your trip you make me feel better. this made me think of you so much. thanks so much.

2006-06-29T19:20:00.000-04:00

i watch as these leaves drift
my head out the window as you drive
if there is anything about this world
that makes me wish i could breathe
just one more breath, of what significance
you are my one and only,
my everything, my smile,
my eyes when they are closed, they
think of you and they flutter
open to find you with open arms.

warmth is all i've ever asked for.
to shield me from such a lonely place
to hold me when i cry so helplessly
is this okay?
is it okay that you belong to me
is it okay that i've stumbled upon such
a beautiful thing when
we live in such grey reality?

being with you
hearing you laugh
watching you ask me to come to you
that's what matters, the only thing;
the only thing.
hands that brush the hair off my face
and lips that kiss the world away
zutto
you are, always...
that's what matters.
the world can end now
i can care less about tomorrow
just...
relinquish yourself.
let me hold you once more,
kiss you again and again
let me relish in such a joy
let me cry in my bliss, because
baby i love you, because
baby i love you, so much that
these tears cannot express themselves.

you make me wish i was beautiful
wish i was a better person
wish i could give you everything in the world
wish i could hold you and never let go
capture all the beautiful things in the world
and show them to you, zenbu.
but baby all i have is myself.
myself and you, who i will give everything for.
for all the smiles you've given me,
i can only give you all of me, and
pray that it's good enough.

because i love you.

2006-06-29T19:16:00.000-04:00

and the 3rd. there was no room to write anything else so i just stuck with the first thing on my mind. i really love him so much.

2006-06-29T19:14:00.000-04:00

the second of 3 pics that was edited for our 16-month. it says 6.23.06 in the corner =) and this was photoshopped too to look like a drawing. i've been really into photoshop lately. it just seems so amazing, that it can take completely black spots, equalize the lighting and it looks good as new. ok, next.

2006-06-29T19:12:00.000-04:00

i'm back at home now. so bored since mike's at work. i just spoke to peter shortly beforehand and it seems we're still cool, so i'm glad. my place is so excruciatingly hot, and i'm so excruciatingly bored, so nothing to do but post another bunch of pics. this happens to be a pic i edited for our recent 16 month anniversary (yes we celebrate every month) and in the final edit i have "you are my one and only" on the curve of the chair but as a piece of art it looks better like this.

2006-06-25T07:40:00.000-04:00

maroon is such
the color of my blood
so distilled in fear i am
helpless in pain, drenched
the rain
relentless and unceasing
offer no hope to
the future, the present
the past hidden in shrouds of doubt
give me sunlight
give me freedom

scores of regrets
immaturity so immense
i can't go on
people hide ugly faces
masks adorned with coins and
jewels and paper bills
things they can hide under
things the rain won't wash
things that will be there when i
open my eyes

the world is an ugly place
i want to disappear, where
darkness will embrace and thought
is unnecessary.
something to hold onto
something to cherish deeply
i can't...

something i can place some faith in
meaningless life gives me such
a meaningless existence
i need to breathe
they won't stop talking
their breath reek of hidden secrets
reek of maliciousness
borderline insanity strikes me hard
and i can't eat, can't breathe
can't live the way things are

somebody stop this
help me
i'm trapped
no escape
they won't stop
make it go away

sexual harrassment.

2006-06-25T07:26:00.000-04:00

i can't take this. i can't take this fear. this is fucking bullshit. this post is gonna be fucking stupid cuz i know i'm not gonna make any sense, but to think that most guys are like that is disgusting. how can i be so oblivious?? they were talking about raping me amongst themselves. they were suggesting for one of the guys to get me drunk and just "bag" me. alright, i can take people looking me up and down; it makes me uncomfortable, but i can take that. you don't fucking talk about RAPE. that dude ramone knows i have a fucking boyfriend. jesus christ, people are fucking disgusting.

that doesn't make john (the guy who told me what was going on behind my back) any better. he basically just strung me along to impress this other girl he's trying to get in the pants of. i'd only thought he was only trying to be friendly and wanted my company, but apparently not. everyone has ulterior motives. it's either get in that girl's pants or using her to get in another girl's pants. i am so sickened i want to throw up. i want to go back to court st and take a pair of scissors off the shelf and cut off all their dicks. i'll bet they won't have anything left to think with after that's gone. i just can't believe it.

this is so fucking ridiculous. i get scheduled up at the front desk where i'm not even trained to be, and then to add onto that i get scheduled with all guys. i know they're probably just saying disgusting things to try to show off to each other, and they probably don't mean it, but i'm so fucking disgusted i don't know what to say. i called chris and said forget it, i'm not working for you the week of july 4th, find someone else. i just absolutely can't go back there after they pull off this shit. what the hell do they think i am?

if i kept typing i know i'll just repeat all this junk over and over. i just can't get over it. i wanna kill somebody. chris got all pissed that i called out on her and didn't even bother to answer her phone afterwards. i want to cry. this is the way things fucking are, and i'm just oblivious and naive and stupid. is this the way people were at staples all along? is this the way things are in brighton too? is kindness only a cover for disgusting motives like theirs? i can't type anymore.

2006-06-23T07:50:00.000-04:00

i blurred the pic a little more to make it look softer, gentler. the details on the green whatchamacallit under the sunflower makes it look like thorns, and when sharper looks even more threatening, which i thought contrasted with the warmth of the color too heavily. i can't quite think of what else to say. sunflowers seem to come out so pretty, i wonder if it's just the lighting at the time. this was taken while i was at work at staples btw, cuz a customer just came in with a bunch of sunflowers and i asked her if i could take a picture of it. she had it wrapped around in this brown paper bag paper type, and the color matched so perfectly with the yellow of the flowers so i took several with the paper in there too. she was so friendly, the type that seems to always be cheery and doesn't quite get mad. that sort of made my day ^^;; but now, until i have something else to update with, this will be my entry of the day.

2006-06-21T07:58:00.000-04:00

for some reason i've gotten into downloading ebook mags and have not been able to stop since. i've moved from downloading just scientific american and national geographic to digital camera world and popular photography, then onto electronic gaming monthly and newtype (even though i have the subscription), and even random playboys and fhms and reader's digests... then finally now i am on JAPANESE mags. i'm downloading vivi, cawaii, seventeen japan, cutie, zipper, popteen, and random other mags respectively called soup, kera, ps, with, and fruits. it's like i'm just d/ling to d/l. OBVIOUSLY i'm not gonna be reading either playboy or the jap mags, though i'm probably providing mike the opportunity for the former
-__-;; the jap mags i'll probably browse through for celebrity faces (i got a vivi with ayumi on the cover) but otherwise, i have no idea what i'm on. i race through phases when i have free time, i guess. although i suppose getting more educated wouldn't hurt either. i have to work in less than 3 hours so i do realize that not sleeping isn't doing me any good, but i am not sleepy at all. which means i'll be half dead at work, which should come in handy might i add. still dying to read the stolen child. i think i remember it was only offered in hardcover, though i thought the soft prints usually come out first?

anyways, mike just bought me a memory card on newegg, 1gb, sandisk xd card, type m. i should be able to keep shooting for a while before memory runs out, and my camera should be compatible with the card since it's fairly new. the card itself was $50. next up, i'm aiming for the vakaadoo case or the stolen child book. price comparison:

The Stolen Child, $14.37 (paperback), Amazon.com
Fujifilm FinePix F30, $348.84, digitalfotoclub.com
holy fuck i'll skip the vakaadoo

revision: i found an ebook of the stolen child, just now! looks like all that's left is the vakaadoo and the finepix f30.

[...]

i was just reading reviews on the f30, so i was away from typing for a while. it really does sound like what i want, with fast shutter speed capabilities and even a flash or no flash comparison of the same shot. and its flash is called "intelligent" flash, supposedly it can determine what level of flash to use depending on how the sensor detects exposure in the surroundings. but still... i paid so much for my last camera, must i gorge myself on another one? with an average of $400? not to mention there isn't a case out for it yet. so maybe either holding off until they release a case at least, or just holding off altogether, until they release the next model. and now, sigh. oh well. helps me save ^__^

EDIT: OMG IN JAPAN THERE ARE CARS THAT PARK THEMSELVES!! my oh my... maybe i would consider driving if some of those came over to america =D

2006-06-20T07:37:00.000-04:00

nature has the ability to express beauty in a way that few human souls are ever capable of. that's why i love photo so much. it touches me in such a way that makes me realize how beautiful things are, and in so i aspire to be able to touch other people in the same way, even though i'm still a fledgling. i should take up the passion of singing again though. music was my original passion, it just never got too far because i lack the voice and the money to gain further talent. practice can only gain so much experience, and on top of all that, it takes connections to actually make it out there. so for now, it's a closet dream. you know who i'd like to jam with one day? well actually, i don't know anymore, cuz it used to be utada hikaru but now i'm not so much a fan of her stuff. maybe imogen heap. i would love to be in a band though. i have the vocals to be able to withstand that. i would actually love to sing glamorous sky with nakashima mika. ooh, i do wanna jam with anna tsuchiya. her voice is hardass. wanting to sing with boa is like asking to be outsung. well, for now, i'm a rookie photographer trying to earn wings. i need to trial and error some, same as my singing days.

2006-06-20T03:56:00.000-04:00

curling itself to sleep the beige awakens reflection too shiny glasses for homeless rhythm to evolve like feathers of freedom lighting your meal instant departure protruding from earth skeleton of stone keep the light up before the crane goes snapshot today dusty tomorrow and mmm my i like this 'cause

this time i'll remember this time i'll say hey come over here look over there remember that beauty and embrace that glow joy is my faith and time can be joy how ruthless you are my look at the time and i've got to be

spraying the lawns get our legs dry wash the dog wipe car sunny side up passerbys join in laugh an hour before you go hands smoothing folds out imperfect incomplete impolite improper no ask before you sit dear black springs youth impossible unlikely dust like hairy men rain like poland spring

see through clothing make me attractive when no one's looking but yellow clouds love gloating smiling spinning twirling disease is knocking don't look today's your day how about it one ride and whiskers can run faster than you don't fade just float pray love dance lie breathe life truth fate trust men don't watch attention feel like illusion dream how green chair glade dew 88 2 23 05 the best time of my life the best life the best

blue light sleep gentle why how now breathe soft hands warm tears closer soon time ends.

2006-06-19T04:30:00.000-04:00

pic of the day is this little adjustment i made for mike, for him to see when he got out of work. technically though, i didn't wake up until AFTER he came back from work, but he wasn't in the room so i just sped my way through everything. i know everything isn't perfect and i stole copyrighted images, but i didn't do a bad job =) i wanted to write maybe to pinocchio diagonally above the kitty and yuki, either in black or white, but i have no scanner so i can't do anything with it anyway. i was a camwhore this afternoon after mike left for work, makeup and everything. wanted to make some use of the pics. supposedly, he's supposed to be getting his car back tomorrow. for both our sakes, i hope so, cuz i really need a more reliable way around everywhere. this is the pdf i ultimately converted it to: LOVEx2.pdf

2006-06-18T09:12:00.000-04:00

here's that same pic from before, with a little saturation to make me look darker (bleh...) i really hate editing pics of myself in photoshop but until i get a tan this will do. my pose in this reminds me of ayumi in the forgiveness pv, so needless to say i really liked this pic. umm, i may look too dark though. talk about vain. yep, that's me.

2006-06-18T07:50:00.000-04:00

time.
that which toys
that which fades
pray
save us all
before you fall
mind.
houser of our souls
hive of our will
pill--
please cease the war
seize the pain,
kill the masses.
that's what all this
is about, right?
citizens of a totalitarian
utopia, not so utopian
we are the vision of perfection.
our will to defeat
our will to conquer
our will to destroy
shall soon lead us to smiles
to happiness
to impending JOY
despite what we slaughter.
we, the will of GOD
shall create the plague for Him,
shall fill the air with
locusts,
rivers and oceans with
blood and oil, oh precious oil;
for bush, you ingenious man
shall be the 2nd rider from the gates
you are the glorious, the red,
definer of JUSTICE
bringer of death.
you shall lead all into
war and fame, oh we the infamous.
mars/aries shall watch
and REJOICE
their reign has returned;
i can certainly weep
as i laugh at the irony.
thought process
there's no time to pray;
the hands dance too fast.
take the pill to cease the mind
cease the will, so
it cannot be surrendered
take me now.
take me within your arms
and hold me with all your might
just so i might cry
&void my eyes of existence.

...we won't be here long...
love, death is...
a beautiful thing.

"It is probable that over 100,000 people were killed in Afghanistan as Bush rolled into that land to avenge 3,000 American deaths." --John WorldPeace

"A quart of wheat for a denarius, and three quarts of barley for a denarius; but do not harm oil and wine!" --The Horsemen, Revelation 6: 1-8

2006-06-18T07:07:00.000-04:00

so i was just saying to jess the other day that i really need to read. in my profile it's written that i already have the stolen child as a favorite book, but it's not, technically, because i haven't read it yet. after reading plot synopses though i really wanted to, so it's currently in queue at the library, around queue 30 or so. it's supposed to be similar to audrey niffeneggar's style of writing, so i'm sure i'd like it. as long as it's no lotr. i feel like i should buy some books, and assemble a collection of the ones i do like, like jess already has. i do realize that a bad habit of mine is to collect and keep everything at "MINT" condition, perhaps it's a sort of ocpd, who knows. jenny can diagnose me with that when she has a license to =) damn that green looks nice with the bg.

2006-06-18T06:52:00.000-04:00

pic from 4.02.06 - i'm posting this just so my pics aren't the ones on top. it makes me feel conceited. anyhow, i have this obsession with taking pics of traffic lights and telephone poles, i think looking at them makes me feel like i'm travelling. the sky just so happened to be perfect, so what else can i complain about? the cars would've been better off not being there though, shame. still, it's nicer than my usual, so hey. *shrug*

2006-06-18T06:43:00.001-04:00

these two are the ones i like the most out of all the body shots from yesterday, and although they're doubles, i wanted to post bigger versions of them. that sounds kind of arrogant, but since my ipod doesn't back anything up, nothing i could do but upp all the ones i like before i eventually lose them. besides that, they are nice pics. i don't like seeing my profile pic next to pics of myself though. i feel like my face is a sign plastered everywhere. the lighting was great and it made my skin stand out better than usual, just cuz i'm so unusually pale. huh, i'm listening to boa. odd.

2006-06-18T05:43:00.000-04:00

after everything, i had to post this. this was at canobe lake park right after we went inside and got our stamps. so this pic was our very own power ranger type thing. my hand is obviously the lightest one, and the one to the right of that davy's, jess's is the one with a hairband and she's wearing that blue skirt, i think the one next to davy's and jess's is mike, and the one next to me and jess's should be jenny's. though that looks sort of chubby for jenny... i would've thought it was mike...

EDIT: O__o;; my mistake. blue skirt is jenny. then who's the other 2 that i wasn't sure of? shiiiiit.... btw... the date the pic was taken was 8/21/05. this is not this year. august of last year when mike's mom got tickets from work.

2nd edit: i figured it out. clockwise from hair tie: hair tie is jenny, then mike, then davy, then me, then jess. i figured it out.

2006-06-18T05:39:00.000-04:00

it's beautiful isn't it? the original was okay too, but i really wanted to edit it. my baby's asleep now, i think he was annoyed that i was posting so much. shoot, i'm annoyed that i'm posting so much. i can't help it though. a PHOTO BLOG! i wanted to do this so badly. and now i find something that offers it for free! it's a phase, i think. i know i'll find a hobby more interesting, just like how i threw out burning dvds for this as a hobby. i wonder... if i made it black and red, would that make it look apopcalyptic? i should give some of these a try.

2006-06-18T05:32:00.000-04:00

no reason why i took this. i've always been obsessed with unfolding folded book corners. it's a habit i develope from sitting through 6 hours of school doing nothing with imbecile teachers.

2006-06-18T05:30:00.000-04:00

this is, actually, my toothbrush. i thought the play on shadow was cool. but then i didn't notice there was an "EBAY" logo behind it, so overall, it's just a funny image. for me. plus i wanted to see how fine the bristles would turn out.

2006-06-18T05:29:00.000-04:00

no particular reason why i took this. i thought the striped denim and the laces would turn up well, but it turned out okay. nonetheless, pattern and symmetry is pretty altogether, so i decided to post it. watch, i'll have an average of 50 posts a day. i wonder if the logo of the shoe should've been in the pic. whatever.

2006-06-18T05:27:00.000-04:00

this is sort of nostalgic for me, to take a pic of this. umm well... actually this smirnoff bottle was the batch molina bought for us... but i love the way the color behind the glass showed up. it's not all that good and i know my technique is poor, but i just love how the lighting is centered too.

2006-06-18T05:25:00.000-04:00

just thought i'd seen this type of pic somewhere before. probably on ps2 mags or articles, but probably a lot cleaner than this too. our ps2 wireless controller's all dusty and up close it looks even worse. i also liked it upside down a lot better than the right side up, although that was entirely unintentional anyway.

2006-06-18T05:23:00.000-04:00

wow, this pic looks like a horrible outlook on life. at first i wanted to turn em around and take pics of the un/sharpened sides, but the color of the erasers made for a nicer contrast to the wood. i didn't notice that broken eraser there, which looks so depressing with the other bunch. i also noticed that these blogs don't have the currently listening to type thing. kind of depressing, but i think for them this whole thing is a visual thing, and 'blogging' is for the public to see, hence no private option.

2006-06-18T04:10:00.000-04:00

well, to end today's crazy blogging phase here's a pic of my old journal, before the age of the blogs. the spine is ripped off, which could explain it looking like a rotten piece of log. i'm still amazed how detailed it comes out. that used be to some sort of a photo journal; i would find pics of things i liked, then print them out at school (bls, with their nice ass thermal printer) and do a cut and paste into the journal pages. it was nice while it lasted, but it was also messy. the writing was neat, which was about all that mattered. for a while, that thing was all me and lily did in our study periods; it was about anime, and cutting and pasting into our journals. i wonder if that was also the year i started failing everything. i don't remember now, but reminiscence can be harsh sometimes. somehow i want to post more cuz i'm still just so amazed. is there a space limit? is it still 300mb if i post on hello? i'll need to find out, before i resume this craziness. being jobless can bring too much boredom, but i guess this will be part of what i do daily while mike's at work.

2006-06-18T03:44:00.000-04:00

whew, finished. that's the halloween '05 pic of me in the half angel half devil costume, and bgcolor removed! that took forever and it turned out like crap so i won't boast about it but it does bring out the saturation in my skin tone more. i wasn't sure whether i should take out the color inside the frame of the wing but decided against it. well actually, i did it and it turned out crap so i decided against it. figured it could pose as sort of a fairy wing effect too. or that's just being lazy trying to talk out of it. the fur was hard to do. which is also why i ended up doing a crap job, but whatever. i'm happy with the result.

2006-06-18T03:02:00.000-04:00

i just found this one on the desktop and decided to post it, just for the sake of it. that's the best i've ever been at photoshop, which is probably sad to most people but i thought it was cool anyway. i removed color for the background and thought it would bring the foreground out. it would be even cooler if we were wearing red. actually... that just gave me an idea. i'll go and try another one on someone wearing a red outfit. i think i remember this one took about 2 hours to do. i just suck at photoshop.

2006-06-18T02:42:00.000-04:00

and these are the shoes i've been obsessed with/wearing the past few days. they hurt like hell and i can barely walk but they're so damn cute! okay, yes, this is the only thing i can think of to write about. but since i got started on materialistic things i figured i might as well. i mean shoot, if it comes down to it i'll just take pics of the anime collection and show that. i feel like a kid in show and tell. sigh.

OK.

2006-06-17T23:30:00.000-04:00

time for some serious blogging now. with all those crazy posts maybe i'm finally warmed up to the new account. and in any case, i thought, hey, what would happen if i linked to another site's pic that's bigger than the frame border allows? well, we'll see. after this pic i'll edit the post to write more but i want to find out the answer to that first.

ouch, not pretty. i had to go to another site and grab the same pic but smaller off that instead. i really need to learn how to do a resize option on pics, but toggling with it probably won't do me any good. let's see how this looks now. btw, that's the vakaadoo case i wanted. it's a hard case for my ipod, and i'm using a silicone one now. jess liked me case upon seeing it, but upon touching it she withdrew her comment haha.

maybe i'll make this sort of like a wishlist post. there are too many things i want though, so indulging myself in material desires is probably not the best thing to do when i'm this broke. but like i said, i am working 2 days next week. and i also wonder where i'm supposed to pick up my check this week. i suspect brighton, but i hesitate to go there. anyway, since i have the link and pic now, this is the new vers. of the finepix i have, that i want. it averages around $400 and i think the cheapest i can get it now is like... $320 or so. maybe more, i can't check for specifics but the quality for the new cam is supposed to be better. it now does night shots at iso 3200 which is supposedly a breakthrough. pic:

okay, so that looks kind of choppy resized down, but hey, not as bad as stealing the pic from cnet! the cnet pic was a transparent gif and it ended up showing the bgcolor of the table for the post around the camera instead, and that looked even more choppy =T and in any case, i think this looks fine. so where was i? something around iso 3200, that's all i remember. this one has more presets, 9 i think? with a new camera i'll probably need at least 1gb of memory for point-and-shooting. on top of those purchases i would still have the ps3 on my wishlist. hopefully, i'll get jess's job, and then i can start saving up to get crap. for the most part, i just want accessories for my ipod and probably accessories for the camera. a memcard is definite, i guess. he just said that i'm posting a lot, which i am, but it's like i'm warming up into this. it's just... nothing else better to do, and it feels good to look at my own blog. MY OWN. i don't know. and typing feels pretty productive too. guess i'll stop for now, but when i can think of something else to write i know i'll be back.

EDIT: umm.. it bothered me eventually. i upped it to imageshack and hosted it there instead.

2006-06-17T22:04:00.000-04:00

ok, so those were wayy old too... but i can't help myself =( it's just good to be able to show off some good pics i took, or some good pics taken, whichever. i think this blog will be more of a journal type thing, whereas LJ will be my sole private blogging one. or i could just use that doc that i put a password on, but everyone knows what my pw is anyway. sigh. well, on the bright side, most people don't care to know what i'm thinking, so that's good enough for me.

2006-06-17T22:03:00.000-04:00

cool lighting.

2006-06-17T22:01:00.000-04:00

that angle makes her eyes look beautiful. well she has beautiful eyes anyway, but i would love to do her makeup again, cept do it the way i do my makeup now. this pic of her reminds me of BoA during her 1st jap album somehow.

2006-06-17T22:00:00.000-04:00

gahhhh!! so pretty! gosh if someone can take a pic of me like that~~ i think the angle and lighting really makes it look like a jacket cover. maybe we can make a cd of all amateurish stuff =D and her expression of course. she would make a fine model.

2006-06-17T21:59:00.002-04:00

nice lighting, makes it look studio again.

2006-06-17T21:59:00.001-04:00

studio.

2006-06-17T21:59:00.000-04:00

studio studio studio

2006-06-17T21:58:00.000-04:00

although... maybe this one looks better. shouldn't have posted that one then. her expression looks more mellow in this and it makes it look more mature, somehow.

2006-06-17T21:57:00.000-04:00

this is one of the pics i am soo proud of. i think it makes it look really studio, when in fact it's just a cheap shot. x] i think the mirror makes it look like a movie set or maybe an album cover or something.