maroon is such
the color of my blood
so distilled in fear i am
helpless in pain, drenched
the rain
relentless and unceasing
offer no hope to
the future, the present
the past hidden in shrouds of doubt
give me sunlight
give me freedom

scores of regrets
immaturity so immense
i can't go on
people hide ugly faces
masks adorned with coins and
jewels and paper bills
things they can hide under
things the rain won't wash
things that will be there when i
open my eyes

the world is an ugly place
i want to disappear, where
darkness will embrace and thought
is unnecessary.
something to hold onto
something to cherish deeply
i can't...

something i can place some faith in
meaningless life gives me such
a meaningless existence
i need to breathe
they won't stop talking
their breath reek of hidden secrets
reek of maliciousness
borderline insanity strikes me hard
and i can't eat, can't breathe
can't live the way things are

somebody stop this
help me
i'm trapped
no escape
they won't stop
make it go away